Every day you perform instead of live, you pay with yourself.
Most high-capacity women reach this moment and do one of two things. They push through - more structure, more optimization, more telling themselves this is just a season. Or they blow something up - quit, leave, move - and discover six months later that they brought themselves with them.
Neither one works because neither one addresses the real problem. The real problem is not your circumstances. It is the gap between who you actually are and who you have been performing. And that gap does not close on its own. It widens. Quietly. Until the performance is so practiced you mistake it for yourself.
And the longer you stay here, the harder it becomes to tell the difference.